Wednesday, March 14, 2012

Our God is an Awesome God


Family time during his six-month stay at UCLA, 1997
Flipping through old photo albums, I was borderline weepy looking at pictures of my first baby. The day he was born. The day of his first open-heart surgery, his first feeding tube and home ventilator. That sick baby now towers over me without all those tubes and wires that I feared would forever be part of him.
I wasn't planning to post anything about Lucas’s 15th birthday today, but after looking through pictures, I realized I'd be remiss if I did not shout to the world and thank the Lord for Baby Lucas. Yes, Our God is an Awesome God! He rearranged my heart and world fifteen years ago today! Lucas will always be that 9.5-pound baby that broke his collarbone out of the shoot and was diagnosed with complex congenital-heart defects on day three of life. This little one rebounded surgery, after surgery, after complications and more surgery and more complications ... plus spent waaaaay too many months living in an Intensive Care Unit. That was the hardest year of my life. And, Lucas’s too.
Abundant life lessons were gathered that difficult year. Through Lucas I learned much more than the anatomy of a human heart and how to suction a tracheotomy. I discovered that bad times don’t last forever and God really does answer prayers, although not always on our timeline.  I learned that babies don’t remember their first couple years and that life really is not fair. I searched to find something good in each day and learned it's the simple, little things that carry the most meaning. I found out what it means to be rich and it has nothing to do with money. The wherewithal to blossom compassion, hope and spiritual growth lives in me today because of Baby Lucas.

What a blessing that the last fifteen years, God has been healing and growing up Lucas into a funny-intelligent-caring- talented-Godly-healthy-young gentleman (most-the-time). I don’t know how else to express it other than, Our God is an awesome God and I have the miracle to prove it!
One last thought. I picked up Lucas today and we were chatting about his birthday. I told him I was looking through his baby pictures. I laughed when he asked "Do I look fifteen years younger?"
You betcha :0)

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