Saturday, April 10, 2010

Painful Puzzle Pieces

Unfortunately, in real-life puzzles, there is potential to be handed a more heart-crushing jagged piece than you could ever imagine. It is the opposite of your perfect dream puzzle piece. This type holds a nightmare that hums a devastating tune and it's delivered with aching loss, leaving no explanation, just shattered pieces of hope scattered across your soul. Sorrowful, real-life puzzle pieces make the big picture impossible to see.

A few weeks back I posted a sweet story about my cousin’s baby shower. Remember how they announced their baby girl’s name? She stuck the name LINDA under her maternity shirt, then lifted the secret veil to present her name...which happens to be the name of both Grandmas. It was a joy-filled moment packed with love and hope of new life. (Linda Belly was the title of that post dated March 22, 2010).

My cousin, the excited first-time mom, went into labor last night only to find out that full term Baby Linda’s heart stopped beating. Today we grieve the little angel who was met with a hello and goodbye all in one breath.

Life is not fair. Or, as I was once told when a jagged real-life puzzle piece broke my Mommy heart, “Fare is what you pay to get on the bus.” Nobody likes this sad reality.
These hopeful new parents hate their real-life puzzle right now. I pray that somewhere in their deep grief God will send some light, knowing that this stinging hurt is part of something bigger; a gigantic beautiful complete picture.


Shalunya said...

What a heartbreaking loss. There's no easy or right way to get beyond pain like this. My parents still grieve some today for the baby boy that lived only 10 days 42 years ago. I know that my big brother watches me from Heaven. Sending lots of prayers their way. Sending you a big hug.

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Yaya' s Home said...

The challenges of life are sometimes almost more than a person can bear. I'm sending a BIG HUG. I only wish there was something more I could do.

~ Yaya
Yaya's Changing World

Louise | Italy said...

I can't imagine how that must be. Even trying to imagine it has left a pain in my heart. Your cousin must be devastated. Every mother's dream-turned-nightmare. Even though we don't know each other, she has my thoughts.

The Redhead Riter said...

I am so sorry for your whole family, but most especially your cousin. My heart is wrenched for her overwhelming sorrow. I will go say a prayer for her now. I believe that her sweet baby went right back to God who in his infinite wisdom knows best, but we sure don't like it or understand it all the time. Sending lots of ♥ to you today.

One Crazy Mom said...

On April 9th I was on a plane to be with my friend who had lost her baby in labor due to a prolapsed cord.

The grief of a mother is like no other.


I hope your cousin is healing.