Unfortunately, in real-life puzzles, there is potential to be handed a more heart-crushing jagged piece than you could ever imagine. It is the opposite of your perfect dream puzzle piece. This type holds a nightmare that hums a devastating tune and it's delivered with aching loss, leaving no explanation, just shattered pieces of hope scattered across your soul. Sorrowful, real-life puzzle pieces make the big picture impossible to see.
A few weeks back I posted a sweet story about my cousin’s baby shower. Remember how they announced their baby girl’s name? She stuck the name LINDA under her maternity shirt, then lifted the secret veil to present her name...which happens to be the name of both Grandmas. It was a joy-filled moment packed with love and hope of new life. (Linda Belly was the title of that post dated March 22, 2010).
My cousin, the excited first-time mom, went into labor last night only to find out that full term Baby Linda’s heart stopped beating. Today we grieve the little angel who was met with a hello and goodbye all in one breath.
Life is not fair. Or, as I was once told when a jagged real-life puzzle piece broke my Mommy heart, “Fare is what you pay to get on the bus.” Nobody likes this sad reality.
These hopeful new parents hate their real-life puzzle right now. I pray that somewhere in their deep grief God will send some light, knowing that this stinging hurt is part of something bigger; a gigantic beautiful complete picture.
Riding a unicycle is like life. To be successful and enjoy the ride, they both require tremendous balance and focus. I sit up tall, shoulders back and imagine I am holding one of my young boys under each arm. My best-friend-techie-husband’s hand on my seat (hubba, hubba) to guide me, and my two wiener dogs running alongside, looking like double Dumbos. As I train to ride Blanche, my unicycle, in a half-marathon, I think how good God is as the breeze blows my brown hair, a big smile on my face. Come along for a thrilling one-wheel ride while I do my best to maintain balance... but keep an open mind, there is always something new to learn!